The relationships that I've had with other people have sustained me in my life because the people who's company I kept was all that I knew. All I knew was negativity and strong willed individuals who chose harshness over compassion. Myself included. I give myself some credit however, I'm not the worst person in the world. lol
I have had some very toxic relationships with friends and loved ones. So much so that I believe it has shaped a good bit of my life. I didn't realize it however until maybe the last two years. I draw a lot of negativity because maybe I give/gave it off. You are just like a magnet in what you attract. However, I have forgiven myself and that huge part of my past. Growing up and into my 20's, I didn't really know any better. I'm almost 31 now and I am just simply uncomfortable now around those who are negative and those who are not uplifting. Whether it has been intentional or unintentional on their end, I've been there. I don't want to be there anymore, however. The hardest part of it all is letting people go when they don't understand why you are pulling away. You begin to be the one that is blamed when just a dose of self-awareness would show them why they aren't the best people to be around. :) But they aren't to totally blame for being themselves. We all have to come to a point of realization on how what we say and do affect the lives of other people.
So for the first time in my life, I'm overcoming the need for friendship in the same way. Relationships should feel good 99% of the time. No one should take that inner peace and gladness from you that God has given. My relationship with God is so much better than anyone on this earth. I deserve the love of God and who I share my space with should be that same peace.
Re-evaluate your surroundings. Who lifts you up? Who is headed in the same direction in better life and living as you are? Be careful though not to rid of people who just may not be where you are. But know the difference between that and those who just don't want to go. lol
Re-claim the birth right of love and peace in your relationships!